bullshit

my mga bgy na sna di nlng ngyari pra wlang msktan at naapektohan!


naiinis aq...
!
naasar sa mga nggyayari sa mundo...
nbabad3p aq..!
haix..!
ewan q ba?!

i hate this feeling..

ung tipong mdmi ka nrrmdaman pra pumigil dun..!
i hate it!
kc ngcmula plang kme eh!
pro bkt gnun!
cmula plang ng frendxhip at lht ng ksyahan sa isnag plce..!

qng ska ng eenjoy kna!
ska pa puputol!

naiiyak aq sa ka unffairan ng mundo!


nsskatan aq..!

nssktan tlg q...!

s lht..!


lht..!

i was crying because i hate this feeling..!

auq na..
mga bgy tlg na dpt cnsng tabi mo nlgn..!
wag ng pancn..
naiinis aq sa iisang tao sa tuwig nkkita q.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


i hate her!!!!!!!!

for the gurLz..

Before, hinahabol kita pero di mo ako pinapansin. Tapos isang araw nawala ako, hinanap mo ako at tinanong, "Bakit ka nagsawa?" Ngumiti ako, "Hindi ako nagsawa. Natauhan lang." Pwede mo kong lokohin pero wag kang magpapahuli sakin. Pwede mo kong palitan pero siguraduhin mong mas mahal mo siya sakin. Pwede mo kong iwan pero siguraduhin mong kaya mo. Kasi pag ako sobrang nasaktan, wala ka nang babalikan.

I fell in love and got hurt but I didn't shed too much tears nor did I ask him to love me again. Instead, I stood up proudly and said, "Ganyan talaga ang magaganda! Hindi bagay sa tanga!" Simple lang para hindi ka masaktan. Kapag minahal ka, mahalin mo din. Kapag ginago ka, gaguhin mo rin. Pero kapag umiyak ka, tanga ka! Ginago ka na nga, iiyakan mo pa? Pag iniwan ka ng mahal mo, wag mo siyang sisihin! Kausapin mo siya ng harap-harapan at sabihin mong, "Ingat, tanga ka pa naman!" Masakit pag iniwan ka ng mahal mo. Pero wag kang magagalit ng husto. Kahit papano may pinagsamahan naman kayo, diba? Kaya for the last time yakapin mo siya at ibulong mo, "Gago, kukulamin kita!" Girls, talo daw sayo sa mga boys? Papayag kayo? Sige, pag niligawan tayo, sagot agad. Pag iniwan tayo? Ok lang. Kapag sinabi nilang, "Uy, ex ko." Alam niyo sagot diyan? "Ay, ambisyoso."

If the one you love doesn't love you back, don't get depressed. Just think about it for a while, maybe cry a bit then wipe your tears and say, "Ang weird naman niya. Di siya pumapatol sa magaganda!" You only got one life so live it well., one heart so take good care, one soul so keep it pure. One boyfriend? What a waste! Make it two or more! Sayang ganda natin!

Pag sinabi sayo ng mahal mo na ayaw na niya sayo, hayaan mo lang. Wag kang iiyak at magpapakagago! Imbis na iyakan mo siya, ngitian mo lang at sabihin mo ang ganito, "So, pano? Bye na!Naghihintay na ang kapalit mo!" Who cares about break-ups? Oo nga, masakit. Makirot sa puso. Pero tandaan mo: a break-up isn't only an end to a relationship. It's also a beginning of a new one and an end to a living hell called "ex".

friendship

a friend love'z all the time..!

well that's my motto...

i usually had diff.kinds of friends..

my grupo ng mga inocente....
my mga baliw at adik sa gimik..
mymga tama lng pantay lng..!

ibat iba na dn pla ang mga grupo ng brkada na nabuo q..!

BFF
PMB
SBG
APAT NA ALAS AT 2NG PRINSESA
ang mga batch q sa E.U
elem.tropa...
frend d2 sa skul q na pipasukan...
at ang mga bkla qng kaibigan..!

ibat ibang klase ng tao..
ibat-ibang klase ng ugali..

i am blessd to have them...

they made my life colorful and more meaningful...
i love them..!
haix..!

ang sarap icipin na mdme na cla na tumggap sa totoong aq..

sa isang matary
maldita
prngka
at moodng babae..!

grabe noh..!

tinaggp nla khinaan q ng buong puso.
ksma q cla sa pag iyak, sa pag halakhak,
sa piling kalokohan...


DI NLA Q INIWAN..

although we lack communication...
we never forget the bondings we had when the time were together..!
nrnasan q na ata ang iba't ibang klase ng tao na nging prte ng buhay q..

my mga traydor,plastic,iwn ere,backfighter at mga maninira di nMn maiiwasan un eh!
heheh..
pro kht gnun tinggap q p din cla kz kelan ba ngkaron ng prpektong tao d2 sa earth...
WLA dba?!

just accept them nlng qng cnu cla dba?!

experiences q sa mga nging frends q..!
grabe di na at mbbilang eh...

my mga mhal q pro cnicraan nmn aq.
my mga ng ddscrmn8,
my mga plastic...
my mga mhal tlg q...
my mga sobrang mpgkakatiwlaan.

pro kht gnwa nla skn uin kusa nmn cla ngsosorry bumablik skn..
kc nrerealize nlna na cla ang mali...
iba't ibang tao,iba't ibang ugali lht minahal q..!
kc pag dtng sa frendship grbe q mg treaxure..
pro grabe dn qng mgtakwil..

pro blang ang mga tao na ngng frnd q,na ngaun eh di q na cla kinikilala...!

well that's me!
i can proudly say that my frends love's me the way i deserved to be loved...
i'm alweiz saying that i am what i am..no can change me unless i allow them to help me to change..y shud i change if they love me the way i am...!
nakkatuwang blkan ang mga bgy at pngyayari sa buhay q na nging msya at full of challenges na nksma q ang kaibgan q...!

di aq naniniwla na ang kaibgan o ang brkada anjan lng pag msya ka..
pro pag my problema kna wla na cla..!

kc sa ngaun wla pa na nmn aq naeexperience na gnun..
hehe..isa plang ata at ngaung college pa nga..haha!
but anyweiz..!la nmn xa!
hehe..
kc kht ung mga frend q wen i was elem.they never forgrt me ..
the way i make them laugh,,and dffn8ly d way i laugh...lyk dis!
wahahahhahah!
y did i say that they never make me iwan at di iwan ere kc i never allow them to make me iwan..haha
subukan lng nla!
subukan nio lng!
xoxombgn q kau!
hahahhahahhah............
even me wla pa nMn q iniwan eh... kelangan man nla q o hindimy shoulders is qlweiz free..
haix.!..

haix..

ngaun pba q mamromroblem sknya!
hahahah..!
ptawa..!


i'm happy tHat i'm a child of GOD...
and GOD created me with his holy spirit..!

i'm really thankful he gave me a personality like this
that's y i love myself..!
being friendly,
and sweet...


just love those people who love me..!


and as if i care to those people who made my life mssrable..!

hahahhaahhah.....



lovelotz guyz!

it cause me to cry

in love:

give and take lng daw?!


pra bang pag binato ka ng tinapay batuhin mo na bato!

gnun lng din dw sa relaxon..

pag seryoso sau, seryosohin mo..


pro bkt gnun ng ggve and take k na nga...
wla parin ngnyayari..?!

minsan cla lng ang take ng take at ikw ang gve ng gve?!
minsan nmn cla ang gve ng gve ikaw nmn take ng take?

kelan ba mgtutgma un?!

msrap mgmhal qng prhas lng lng kau ng ggve and take dba?!
wlang blikan?!wlang gantihan..!

rpo sa ngaun wla na atng gun?!

npka manhind, at maicp na ng ibang tao..!


kc lht tkot na msktan..

and cguro i'm one of them..

it's better to recieved than to gve??

they say it's better to give than to recieve but in a game of love sometimes it's better to recieve than to gve?

y did i say that..?

it is because when the time i'm willing to gve everything i usually recieve nothing..!


that cause me to cry.. and to be scared of loving some1...!
i usually gave what they want...
my faith
&
my trust...
but
they make me cry by gving me back such pain...!
i hate it!

it's over..

it's over...

loving some1 who doesnt know how to exist is just a waste of tym...

i'm happy with my life....

i'm happy that he left me...?

ahihihi..?

gnun?!

y?

kc mdme q natutunan sknya...

they say if love becomes painful..it's time to let go and save yourself a little pride...!

but for me letting go someone u find special is not a gud alliby,

fyt for wat you think is ryt..!

you don't know how to love if don't how to fyt..!

learn to fyt for wat you think is ryt!

for your'e own sake, and also for your'e partner...!

but sometimes u nid to stop fytng na dn..
lalo na qng wla tlg nggyayari dba?!

ms ok na un!

pra my mtra nmn pra sa srli mo at sa ibang dadating sa buhay mo..ahihihi...!

that'z an irony of life?!

twenty one...

_March 21, 2007

some1 drop by to teach me how to love...
and unfortunately he left me..
he just teached me how to love...and dats it...
and then in just a snap his gone..


it hurts..xuper..!


during were together...
it's been so great to have him..!
his the one who made me laugh,
who made me cry...
even he made me angry...!
his sweet..
his too protective..
he love's me..and i love him dn nMn during were together but not at all...i just love him it's because his my bf..
and dats it..nothing else..
pra bang msbi na my bf q...kea nsbe q mhal q xa!
mdmi xa iniwang memories skn...!
kxe he is really sweet...!kht saan..!
one time ng away kme...
ng absent pa pra mkachat q..
un pla pupunta q s place nla....!
pag ka kita q xknya..
cbhan nia q na i'm stupid...!
how many times nia q cnbhan nun...so nglit aq kc auq ng cnsbhan q ng gnun...
tapos glit pa xa kc i'm wearing off shoulder's and short..!
until gumbe..manunuod kme ng bsketball ngtxt ung tropa nia nkapag suntukan dw..
pag dting q dun ayaw mg paabyad edi un pinabayaan q..tpos sbe nia wla dw q pkeeelam...
baliw noh.!
tpos dumaan xa sa harap nmen pauwe na dpat kme...ng sorry xa, tpos wag q na dw ulitin un..!
haix..!tpos pinakilala nia q sa bestfrend nia..haix..!
fresh pa sa utak q nohh!
feeling nia tlg di q xa minhal...
kea un nkapagbreak xa sktong monthsary nmen..
skt noh..!
pro wla pa dn un sken...
prng wla lng!
hnggang dumating sa punto na i miss him na..!
and i've realize that i really love him pa..
lagi q iniicp n huli na...pra sbhin pa un...kht ngkakatxt pa kme..!
we don't have any personal cloxure at oll..we just consider that were not belong at ol.
nging cla ng dati nia gf...
and me...meron na dn..4days after him..
but it seems like even i have bf'z the more i've realised that i love him so much..!
and i'm olweiz praying that he will be mine again..but it doesnt work...!
ng suffer q ng 1yr and 2months sa paghihintay kht nssktan na tlg q..!
feeling q kea q pa xa tnggpin with all my hart..!
but it stops when he called me.. and say sorry for everything...all that time i'm blaming myself aq my kslanan gnan, aq my pagkukulang...un pla my mga kslanan dn pla xa..na nrealiza nia dn...!
after 1yr and 2months dun nia lng naicpan na mgasorry
June6,2008..
grabe dba?!
after ng tawag nia it feels like lhat ng feelings q sknya nwla..!
dim man nwla tlg ng wla..!
npagod na q..
and i choose to stop loving him dat much!
aun naacept q na lht na "were never meant for each other TLG"
mdme q nsktan sa pag susuffer q sknya..!
mdme dumaan..pro xa pa dn..
and now i choose to be his frend...were communicating each other without thinking anything unlike before...
ngaun hinahaarap q na future q na wla xa..!

mskt pro un totoo..!
and now i'm absolutlly happy...!

a story behind my heartaches

_A Story behind my heartaches...!

well, my dumating lng skin isang tao na nging special sken...

minahal q xa kso huli na bgo q pa mrealize un...?

skt noh..pro un ang totoo...

kwento q huh?

ngtuturo ung brkada q ng cheering taz nkakasma aq dun and he was the drummer..late q na xa nkilala cgro 3 days before d laban...

at first kla q di xa interesado skn kc npka suplado nia, ni hindi nga nia q nginingitian eh..

ewn q ba dun, bsta suplado xa..!

maangas, myabang and kalog!

his d boss pag un mga kxma nia..! di q dn xa pinapansin at all kxe di pa q mhikig sa badboy nun..

ni hindi q nga dn xa pinapansin eh...pro later on..

ewan q pro lam mo un prng der's something chukchak chenes between us...!

heheh..

ptawa noh..ok blik tyo...ahehe..

marsh 15,2007 laban na nung squad...

late q dumting dun isang hagas na hagas, eh kc nmn kinuha q pa costume nla di dn pla mgggmet,,awtz noh...but anyweiz..eh di un tpos na ung lban ska lng nla q nkta..

mejo feeling close na kme..apir dun apir jan..hehe..

tpos ma mlayan q...ala eh interesado na pla ang lolo mo...
kc nugn nandun plang kme sa court nla eh..
niloloko na nla q dun, tpos knuha na #.q..
taz ang asar pa nga nia eh..
gf na kta huh??
aun..!lakas tama un..!adik!haha
tops..

hehe..pag dtng ng gbe xempre celeb.un..

dumting xa tpos basta di q na tanda ung iba...

basta di q lng mkalimutlimutan eh..

nugn ng papastroll q dun sa isa sa kgroupo nia,sbe q"ui anu stroll mu nmn aq... tpos bgla xa lumkad sa harap q at cnbi nia na xa dw mg stro2l, xempre gulat at tkot nmn q nun..mukha kc xia adik hahhah..

tpos aun ng pahiwatig na..

alam niu sbe nia..?!

pde ba kta mging gf?

anu tayo na?

xempre ang lola mo xuper gulat kea xuper pa kemeh din..

haha..

kea sbe q bilis nmn..

aba ang sgot...?!

anu ba gsto mo lgwan pa kta?anu ba gsto mo classic , new generation o anu?!

angas dva?!

cnu na nmng gugsto sa angs nia..!

sbe q lcng klang..!

pag kauwi q umgang umga ngtxt xa...!

at ng explain na seryoso dw xa..?!at di xa lacng nun..!

xuper english pa huh..!

haix,,xempre naimpress nmn q nun..

harhar..

tpos ............aun...
later On ngng kme n dn...
aheheheh...

MARCH 21,2007...

i'm tired

i'm tired of getting hurt..

really i am..

i'm tired of loving some1 who doesnt know how to exist at all...



i love him and i don't know to stop...

i miss him and i don't know if i could stop..

he love's me and i don't know y he stop!


haix...!

is dat love...??